Monday, July 6, 2015

Selfish Part 2

When do you decide to be more selfish? When do you think to yourself fuck him/her, fuck that I'm going for mine.
I ask because there's something I want that (actually doesn't belong to anyone but) technically belongs to someone else.

I personally feel that I am a better fit for said something however I haven't got the slightest idea as to how to go about making it mine. I don't want to steal it, but maybe I do.

Which again raises the question, when do I decide to be more selfish!?

Selfish Part 1

I remember a conversation I had in which I was told that the word 'selfish' was widely misunderstood.

Yes, it can have a negative meaning, however upon further review it simply means to put ones self first or before others.
I myself am slowly learning to be more selfish, to put myself and my concerns before those of others. The reality of it is: if we aren't concerned for ourselves no one else will be. And if we don't do for ourselves we can't do for others.

Does that make sense?

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Where Do I Stand?

What's going on Bull Penners!?
I know it's been so long since I posted anything. It's almost safe to say that I don't post anymore. Truth of the matter is my adult life has left me with very little time to document unless it's my babies blog or InstaGram. Lol

But I'm here and I've had things in mind worth writing about.

More recently it's been the subject or the question rather of being happy. Are you wondering what I mean? Well I'll tell you: I was 18 years old when I first asked myself "What is my purpose in life? Why am I here?" (in fact I might have even written about it) and while I doubt I've yet to find the answer to that question, I do feel I've gotten closer to a meaning/answer.
I truly believe there is no point in asking the question but rather simply live and find happiness or die trying.

I like to think that I am a happy person and I don't believe in stress or whatever else. Granted we all encounter stress and we all have moments when we can't take the pressures of life, but even with all that I try to smile through the bullshit.

These passed couple of weeks however I've been wondering if I've been putting my own happiness above anyone else's? Am I living a life where I'm happy? On first thought the answer is yes. I have my daughter who I love more than life it's self, a girlfriend who loves me like cooked food and the air in my lungs. What more could I ask for?

But I remain inquisitive. I believe that in making others happy (which I try to do often) you can easily lose yourself and become..... Not so happy.

Example: there's something out there that I want, and I've been reluctant to reach out and go all the way in my pursuit for fear of stepping on someone else's toes so to speak. Should it be that way? If I feel that acquiring this thing will make me happy, should I a give a flyin' ish about anyone else's toes? Should I be more selfish? Lol. A lot of questions I know. And I don't expect anyone to answer them for me. But I am starting to think that worrying about said toes are a form of making someone else happy while feeling like I myself could be happier.

I've reached the part of my writing I always reach. That point where it's just a little unclear where the point is going. So I bring it back with another question: do I let go of this desire, or do I say "fuck it, I'm going for mine!"? I want to tell you I'm going for mine hopefully next time we meet I can tell you I did.....


Sunday, September 7, 2014

Daddy to Be...

What's going on Bull Penners!?

First and foremost, please accept my apology for the lack of posts in the past couple of months! Honestly I have not been motivated enough to blog much. Partially because I have been trying to actually live my life away from a screen and keyboard and partially because I've been dealing with anything worth writing about on my own rather than venting through my blog. Did that make sense?

However, I'm pretty sure inspiration will come back in full force in a few months seeing as how your boy is now a father to be!

Yes, you heard and read that right. Antoinette and I are now expecting parents of a little baby girl.

I've been going back and forth trying to decide wether I was going to continue to use this same blog to document this new chapter of my life or wether I was going to start a whole new one... After a small poll on Facebook and my own thoughts I decided that I will start a whole new blog. Don't worry, this does not however, mean that this one will be thrown in the trash! So many of you have been here with me since day one and I wouldn't just leave you hanging like that! I will still use this blog to vent when I need to or to discuss current events in that pattented Eno Bull tone. The new blog which you might even consider a sub blog is simply a separate page dedicated solely to my daughter. In fact it will even be written in letter form addressed only to her. This of course does not mean you can't read it, in fact I'm posting this particular post to share the link with you.

So this is not a goodbye to the BullPen, it will always be here for you guys, just wanted to share that it will be expanding by way of Blog for my baby! Like my boy Will said: From BullPen to PlayPen! Lmao.

With that said, Tha BullPen presents to you: Forever For Zairah

Hope ya follow my new chapter in life, fatherhood.


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Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Meet Pam Grier aka Charlene

Yaoooooow! So if you know me then you know I've been a guy who loves cars since day 1!

As a kid I always wanted to be in the drivers seat, so much that I remember a time that my father was doing something with his car, cleaning it or working under the hood or something. I found myself in the drivers seat while he wasn't looking and I put the car in drive while it was on a downward hill lol!

Looking back you'd think it would have traumatized me, considering I never heard my dad scream my name with such fear and concern as he ran alongside the car before he could cleanly jump in it to stop it before it reached the intersection. But nope, it only fueled my love for being in the drivers seat.
Fast forward to when I turned 13, that was the first time my dad officially let me drive. I remember he let me park the car in front of the building we lived in. It was no biggie, but I knocked it out on my first shot and I felt like a big deal. Lol.

I say all that to say, I should have had a my first car such a long time ago considering how much I've always loved em. Countless magazines and websites and car shows on tv have consumed so much of my time that it's a wonder I never drove my own car home. But an addiction to sneakers and lack of $50k for your dream car will do that! Lol

Regardless of the facts, I always told myself that if my first car wasn't going to be a 1964 Chevy Impala, it was going to have to be a BMW! Preferably an 80's era one, but almost anything with a roundel (BMW emblem) would suffice.

So about a year and a half ago, a friend of mine (who has chosen to remain nameless) bought this beauty that you see here... I damn near Jizzed my pants when I saw it. He told me back then, "I Know I'm gonna sell it eventually so just have you're money ready when I call you." The car has been in the back of my mind ever since.
My ultimate dream car has been a lowrider since High School, but realistically speaking I'm in no position to throw all that money into a 50 year old car just because. And above that BMW has always been my favorite make. I can remember being 9 or 10 years old and telling my brother he was a fool for liking Mercedes! BMW was and still is where it's at! No disrespect to anyone in a Benz, cause lord knows they mean. So I was always a Bimmer guy and like I said I knew my first car had to be the german classic.

So about a week and a half ago my friend hit me up and told me he was finally selling the car! My excitement could not be masked. I was so happy to hear he was parting with it that I damn near wired him the money lol.
It has it's fair share of problems but it's all minor things. Plus I plan on making it my project car anyway. I have big dreams for my first car, it's all about stance.

So when my friend told me what he/she was selling it for I was left with no choice but to head out to meet him/her and take it for a test drive.... Truthfully I just wanted to drive it, because I knew that I would buy it regardless of almost anything.
After a test drive with my pops I knew this car would be coming home with me that same week. Sure enough, on June, Friday the 13th, I met with him/her handed over the cash and was handed back a title and a BMW key.

I drove it home that day in the rain with a grin on my face that you couldn't wipe off with bleach!
I went to my cousins house to show it to him and tell him how excited I was that I finally owned a car. That was after I went to fill up for the first time and before I went to the McDonald's drive thru to get my girl something to eat.
The next day I drove it to IHOP and then gave it it's first car was while in my possession! You know all the things a man does with his first car within the first couple of hours of owning it. Needless to say I was geeked!

Based on her charcoal color I named her Charlene, and based on the fact that she is 14 years old and still sexy as hell I named her Pam Grier! Lol. Old and attractive. I can't wait to start hokking her up although it has to wait for reasons that will be explained in the next post! lol

As for now she's just gonna be fun to ride in. Believe it or not, you could be certain pairs of sneakers at Flight Club for more than I bought this car. Can you guess how much I paid? I bet you can't Lol.

So yeah, Eno's finally got a car! And not just any car, a 2000 BMW 528i!

So that's my baby.... A 528i e39 with a M5 front lip. In all her glory! When you see me in the street yell "What up Tho!: Loll

Hope you enjoyed meeting Pam Grier!

Stay Up and Stay Tuned!

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Danny's Audi A4 Wagon

This is a blog post that is coming to you a whole month and a half late, but it's here nontheless. Hey Better late than never right!?

So on the 1st of May my cousin in laws got married in Long Island. It was a beautiful weddin'. Stan and Pia tied the knot in front of all their family and friends in what turned out to be an amazing reception.
Shortly after, we all headed back to Brooklyn where my cousin in law Danny had his beautiful 2004 Audi A4 wagon!

Danny has been a car guy for basically what seems to be all his life Lol. And if you know me, then you know that cars were my love before sneakers, and probably even music. However me being a car guy quickly became over shadowed by my infatuation with having as many sneakers as one man could possibly collect. On top of that, there were more sneaker heads around me than there was car guys. So naturally I've never owned a car although with the sneaker collection(s) I have/have had, I could have bought 3 cars by now lol.
I say all that to say, that I'm so glad I met Danny to bring me closer into the world of cars like I've wanted for so long! 

So in 04 Danny went and bought what a few guys at the Audi dealership called a "Grandma Car" Lol.  But like it's been said, you either like wagons or you don't! Danny, obviously does..... And can you blame him. Look at this bad boy! Personally, I don't care for every wagon, but I can remember seeing a BMW wagon on my block every once in a while a few yours back. It belonged to one of the drug dealers or something! But after seeing this one I was sold! I told myself "I gotta join my homie in the wagon game!" Naturally being the impressionable guy I am the hunt for a BMW 5-Series Touring (Wagon) began! 

So Danny has been working on the car for as long as he's had it. Like he said, "You're never done modding your car!" To me that's what makes it all a form of art. He's dropped it significantly and is still going down to one inch. When I first saw the car close to a year ago it was sitting on a different set of wheels. But now it's on a set of ESM wheels. A new company that he told me he was trying out. A good choice! He locked down a set of 19" 2 piece wheels with the step lips wrapped in stretched tires giving it that sexy look right under the fenders and wheel wells.

Alongside the wheels, the homie modded and upgraded the brake pads and the rotors. He also added a stereo system that would make the average big name producer run and hide from the noise! 
As for the other subtleties he personally painted a black strip in the back that separates the trunk lid from the bumper and he's currently looking to switch the front lip... Very subtle but all excellent mods!

All in all, the Audi is a a beautiful machine! Runs like a dream, and snapping photos of it doesn't even begin to contest with actually riding in it! My cousin in law who will be there every step of the way as I modify my own car has build a beautiful machine! 

In my opinion there was no one more fit to bring me into the car game! Thanks a mil Danny, can't wait to get started on my own so that it looks as good sitting next to yours! 

So, did I find a wagon!? 
Find out on the next post. Lol


Thursday, March 13, 2014

Kobe IX Elite (Sneaker Review)

And another one!

So my first sneaker review on the Lebron XI's did pretty well. A few people hit me up behind the scenes to let me know they enjoyed the post and I just wanna give a quick shout out to them!
We all know that my blog is not about sneakers but it is about my life and sneakers is actually quite a large percentage of my life. Lol. So with that said, I wanna share another review with ya because I've been inspired by another pair.

On Tuesday after a few failed attempts at owning a pair, I finally got my hands on the new Kobe IX Elites.

Little background: I saw these for the first time about 2 or 3 months ago when word surfaced that Nike would be releasing a "Prelude Pack." The pack consisted of all the Kobe signature Nike kicks from 1-8 all leading up to the new release, the Kobe 9 Elite! Now if you know me, you know I hate Kobe and I don't care who feels a way about that! Lol. However I did like a few of the sneakers releasing in the pack, the Prelude 1's above all others. But if you know the sneaker game then you know how hard it was to get your hands on any of the releases, and for $1,300.00 you can tell Flight Club to chill.

Anyway... Initially when I saw the images for the 9's I fell in love. I think, lol. I say that because I feel under any other circumstances this particular style of sneakers would not be my cup of tea... I mean look at them, they look like some hybrid of basketball sneakers and boxing boots! 

But, once again, (in my opinion) Nike knocked another one out the park baby! With the help of Eric Avar (lead designer) of course. Something about these sneakers called me, could have been the allure of the colors, the height of the sneaker which reminds me of the Air Mags which I've been in love with since 1990. Or maybe it was the stories behind the colorways.
In my research I learned that he drew inspiration from various people places and things to come up with the colors. He drew inspiration from Michael Jackson all the way to the city of Los Angeles.

This blue pair in particular, the "Perspectives" which is what hey have been named was inspired by Picasso's Blue period. The 3 year period where the artist painted things in all different shades of blue and blue-green. Initially I did not care for the colorway, but after hearing what they were inspired by it made sense to me and I literally felt that I HAD to have them.

So seeing as how finding the "MasterPiece" (the ones I wanted most) or the "Inspiration" (the ones I liked and was willing to settle for) proved too difficult, I had given up hope on finding the "Perspectives" until a walk up Fordham Rd with my boy Penny changed that. We walked passed the Fordham Foot Locker and my boy Penny said to me "Look, they still have the kicks you want." I inquired about them and the guy on the floor told me that they only had sz. 10.5 and 11 left. I almost gave up hope again until Penny said "try em anyway man, you never know!" I did just that. I tried on the 10.5 and I felt like I had just put on Cinderella's glass slipper! Lol. Yes I am a 9.5, but with flat feet and Nike's new shoes being smaller or bigger or whatever, 10.5 worked best for me.

I couldn't believe how comfortable and light they felt on my feet. I'm sure that this is due to the fact that Eric Avar's design introduced flyknit to a basketball sneaker for the first time. Nike also featured their latest technology such as flywire and lunar soles making it the most comfortable sneaker I've worn since the Lebron XI's.

Then there is the colors. Like I said at first I didn't care for them, even though blue is my favorite color... After seeing it in person though.... Well you see what we're doing here. Such a dope mix that Nike has played with before on everything from Air Force 1's to Air Penny 2's, but on this particular pair it's just something that makes it better.

The Swoosh on both sides appears to be painted and then heat dried on to the sneaker which accompanies the concept of Picasso's paintings very well. 


The red stripes featured on the heel of the sneaker represent the stitches on Kobe's heel from his surgery, His logo is featured prominently on the front of the tongue along with some very cool pattern stitching.

The sole once again, similar to the Lebrons is it's own sneaker all together. An inch and a half or so ithick sole with Kobe's name on the back and is very comfortable on the foot. All in all, I must say it is an amazing sneaker. I love the silhouette and the colors are in my opinion very unique and vibrant in person!
I'm very proud of my purchase even tho I'm not huge of paying more than $200 for kicks. Yes retail for these bad boys are $225.00 so dig deep in those pockets if you're trying to cop!

I of course will NOT be balling in these lol. But for those of you who will and want a more performance based review check out my homie Alex's post/review on the shoe HERE: And of course thanks to Alex and the Team over at Zaro Sports for the collaboration! Follow them!

Hope you enjoyed my review and I'm happy to hear from you. So let me know what you feel by way of comments, emails ( or IG/Twitter: @EnoBull


Stay Up and Stay Tuned!